Driving out the Darkness
This past weekend, I’ve felt again the insatiable darkness of our day and age. Especially for those of us who have put careers and jobs on hold to build up our families first. I can go for a few days without friends and support, but I can’t go forever. It’s a hard calling, motherhood.
We are told that we have to fill up our cups first in order to fill our children’s cups. But how often is that possible? I woke up at 6:47 this morning, crawled out of bed without disturbing the two tiny occupants, only to have maybe five whole minutes to myself before my seven year old claimed my arms and lap. And most mornings, I’m excited if I even leave the bed without waking up any tiny sleepers!
Is it even possible to take time for ourselves before the kiddos wake up?! Is it possible to make this life one that I look forward to instead of dread?
I truly believe that it is possible. It’s possible to find your tribe, to love your kiddos well, and to look forward to each day. At least, I hope it is.
I can’t say that I’m going to wake up every day before 5, soak in some quiet time, begin my day with exercise and breakfast, and make every moment count. I’m pretty much stuck in some aspects of my routine. But I can change some things.
I can spend less time on my phone and more time with my people.
I can write down the glimpses of light in my life.
I can spend time in my Bible, reading and allowing what I’ve read to change me.
I can live this life instead of the one in my head.
And I will keep a record of what I’ve learned on this blog.
This year is supposed to be one of LIGHT, and already it’s exposing my weak areas. *weak laugh* But that’s what light does: it drives out the darkness.